A Mouse in the House
The first you know of a mouse in the house is a blur of movement in the corner of your eye as you wonder aimlessly about the house. A few times, you think it is just a reflection but then these peripheral events start to take shape and with a feeling of dread your suspicions coalesce. Still you tell no one, not even your wife, especially not your wife. Maybe the mouse is just a one-off, an accidental interloper from the overgrown outside. But you start to keep an eye out for it.
One night, you are collapsed on the couch in a haze of inexplicable fatigue. Like life is somehow draining you of all creativity: reducing you, compressing your moments into jobs and tasks that must be done. Then, that now familiar blur: along the bottom of the wall and around the corner, out of sight. You jump up and creep quickly into the next room but it has vanished. Still you tell no-one. No need to make a fuss, you can deal with this quietly.
You don’t notice yourself, but the next day, a coworker points out that you have been whistling all day: three blind mice.
Again, late one night, you are upstairs just looking out the window for no reason. You were thinking about something or other but then, for some un-measured time, you have been just staring as the clouds and stars compete for the small patch of sky outside your window. And there is the mouse. It’s head appears first and then quickly withdraws. You swivel your eyes but dare not move. Then it appears from the slightly ajar door of the linen press and scurries quickly away. You follow on tip-toes but it vanishes again.
In the morning, you remember the incident but you start to doubt. Did I really see a mouse or was I just very tired, perhaps I dozed off and dreamed it. There are no signs of the mouse: no nibbled food, no droppings, no nest or smell. Well, there is that partly eaten muesli bar you found on the floor of the pantry once but apart from that…
It’s a week later and you haven’t seen the mouse. You’ve been sitting up at night, quietly by the window, waiting. Does the mouse really exist? You’re pretty sure that it does yet you still haven’t told anyone. You have a connection now, you and the mouse, an understanding or sorts and more than that, as you sit in the dark silence waiting, the thoughts of your mind unravel and peel away, drifting out the window and filling the sky. You think about your ancestors, staring at the same sky, looking up from their own occupations and activities of survival. The mouse doesn’t come tonight, but you don’t mind, you know you will see it again and the thought comforts you.
Let’s fast forward history by about twenty years. America and it’s allies have won1 what is now known as the Faith Wars and religion has been expunged from all matters of state by laws that prohibit recognition of any religion at all, it’s not illegal, just completely unsupported by government. The Israel / Palestine issue is kind-of solved by the fact that the territory is now uninhabitable due to radioactivity and global warming has been circumvented by the deployment of giant space mirrors in low orbit that block out a proportion of the sunlight. The space mirrors are serviced by two enormous space elevators.